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 in response to Mimzy...   Yes I got energy maybe not like when I was 29 but I still have my brains. I think that is true for many people. There is something you are passionate about and you get tons of energy. I have done very many things in my life.I have made purses, ornaments, playing the guitar, took organ lessons with mom , drew pictures, sewed and just being physical playing volleyball on the beach and at nights during the summer at a friends of mom's. They always had a bunch of people over and we played volleyball. I use to sweat too playing volleyball. I still remember all those people. I loved to get out of the house when I was young and hike in the hills around us. And ride horses which I miss the old stables I use to visit. I never liked sitting still but always be on the go.
I just saw the news and it is a mess over there. So I hope he and his friends have a safe place to stay. He has a sister somewhere in the states I think.
I wish it was better for everyone too all over the world.
Have sweet dreams and you stay warm as we head for some tiny bit of rain. Oh well it is winter not spring yet.

Take care
Starshine

 in response to Starshine...   No energy? Just get you on a subject that you are passionate about and you've got tons of energy. lol

I know the feeling, I learned long ago that it was my body and they dang well better start treating me like a person and not some number on a file. And boy did they find out that there were patience like me that would not act like obedient little puppies and roll over, sit and stay when they ordered it.

lol got one newbie doctor caught off guard...he didn't know what to do and had to go get another doctor for back up. The other one was older and when he he came in I gave him that look and he backed down. Said, I think we should have a female doctor take care of this one. My smirk was on when the female doctor came in just looked at me and said. You got those two off step, what did you do? I simply said I want to know what you are doing, before hand and when you are doing it I want to know what is happening so I can be ready.
She looked at me - smiled and said. Oh your an informed and educated patient. No wonder they got all confused. They don't get many. Especially one that is aggressive about her own health. lol
then she said Bravo...don't stop. They need to get knocked down a peg now and then. Keeps them human...

That was when I was 17yrs old...and I took her advice to heart. Much to the dislike of many a doctor - male and female...but mostly males. You can imagine what I told one female doctor who said Give me a few days and I'll get the baby out...yeah, right. I was having a boy...they always think I'm farther along with a boy due to their size...but I don't let them get a hold of me if I can help it...if I can get away from the hospital, I go in when I'm ready...not when they are. lol

Such a shame that so many are hurting...even in this country so many are losing what they worked so hard to get. If it's happening here, then it's logical that it will be even worse elsewhere...
I hope that he finds some where safe...till things calm down.

Hope that things will get better...we all have to do what we can to make it happen. Night and sweet dreams...stay warm...

 in response to Mimzy...   I wish that there was more peace in the world. I was really shocked to learn Cairo, Egypt where he has a bee keeping business, little land , his mom and friends their country is under turmoil. He had changed his avatar on facebook and another site and I know why.

Oh do not get me started on doctors. You better research what they want to give you and have a list of questions to ask. I will never forget my hospital stay with the blood clot. I had a 72 year old room mate suffering from a bit of a stroke and her doctor walked in while she was in the bathroom asking her how she was? The minute she got out, she was in the hallway telling the doctor to come back she had questions to ask him. She learned from me as I wrote down everything I had to ask my doctor and if you don't have a brain or someone there to be your patient advocate you trust the medical staff can really mess you up. I have seen it and been through medication they wanted to give me that was for another patient. I was lucky I was 24 years old and learned early on to question authority in the medical world what someone wanted to give me in the hospital. I have never been in labor but I am pretty vocal when it comes to my health or when my mom was going through health issues like take the hormone replacement crap and she was prone to surface blood clots. Now they find out hormone replacement causes among other thing lung cancer. And then when she had lung cancer I wasn't quite. Or when Sunny got sick not being sent home for hair balls which was a crock. I don't like seeing people or animals suffer or for the elderly to get over medicated causing more problems.

Thank you.

Take it easy and get some rest too.
Starshine

 in response to Starshine...   There seems to be trouble everywhere - so much anger, intense emotions...I wish that things would be less so.
But with a world that is acting insane - all we can do is hope for sanity.

I can't believe the way doctors act now adays, it's unforgivable. It's as if the patient has to have things done at a time that's convenient to the doctor - I also do not agree with this nonsense of scheduling a child's birth...that is not right. The child should be allowed to come when they are ready...unless something goes wrong...but this scheduling for the convenience of the parties involved - that isn't right.

I tend to be a tad aggressive...and I'm very vocal about it when I'm in labor..lol I had some old woman tell me that I was too noisy and I told her maybe she'd like to have the pain for me...and if I was too noisy maybe she should go someplace else and stop bothering me. Although I was a tad more colorful in my delivery.
lol

I don't go for that superior attitude some medical people have. I'm a little more confident and don't let them push me around. Which some doctors don't like and I tell them what to do about it if they give me crap too. lol
I'm not much of a shrinking violet...more like nettles...lol

Hope that you get some peaceful rest...take it easy.

 in response to Mimzy...   I was watching the news at 630PM about Egypt and the up rising over there and met someone from another site who is in the middle of it and his mother. All cell phone calls and internet usage is cut. So people he has met through the internet are worried about him. I got him to join here but he visits with others elsewhere. I took my nap and getting up to see what I need to close down so to speak. When I had Sunny, 11PM is was bed time. I learned the hard way too and take breaks from the computer but I leave it on and take a nap.
I will take care and you to get some rest.
Oh I loved what you said to the lady who had a baby two months early - Great advice
Starshine

 in response to Starshine...   yeah you should have a rest, then see about trying to cut down on all those irons.
Maybe you won't feel so tired if you stop piling so much on yourself.
I had to learn that the hard way...I try not to take on so much as I used to anymore.

Take care and get some rest...

 in response to Mimzy...   Hello and I saw you on late last night but I was tired and not in great mood. So I walk away from food go lay down if tired. I know what you mean about getting older and closer to that end. And about doctors. I need to take trash out and forgot the other day. I have a lot of irons in the fire.
Take care and hope you find the right combination of meds to help you.
Stay warm and safe too. Today while I have tv till 22 of Feb. think try to watch it.
Starshine

 in response to Starshine...   I don't know, but as my brother would say, at least I don't need dog tags. lol which is mean and I shouldn't really laugh - but I've seen some of his dates. *shudder*
yeah, it's been cold and wet here and all I've wanted to do is snuggle into the covers and tell the world to leave me alone - I so tired.
I've gotten so frustrated with the doctors - it's appts. and tests. Then it's more appts. and then try this med or that med. Which I research each one before I even take it - if I take it at all. I had a doctor prescribe me something that would have made me sick as a dog if I would have taken it. I checked the cross over effects with stuff he'd already prescribed for me a month earlier. Guess he forgot that they clash.
With all the mess ups with medicines and people dying because of it - I'm not interested in being a obedient little patient. It's either a partnership to prevent issues and improve my overall health or I go find another doctor.

Right now I'm getting ready to start training to get myself back into a better, healthier condition. I've had this problem with not being hungry for years. But I did notice that while I was breast feeding and active - I lost weight. And I was hungry too.
So I figure that the reason it all went back to how it was before, is because I had stopped feeding and then slowly stopped being as active.
I'm going to start working out a bit - starting with going back to doing my Tai Chi & Qigong again. It can get me started by bringing some balance back and get me moving too. Then I've decided to do a little low impact aerobic and some band muscle building plus toning to help with burning calories too. Stronger muscles will help to keep down the pain too.
The tai chi will help with working the inside, while I also try to work the outside. That way I'll find some balance which hopefully will help with some of my symptoms, like the pain and loss of energy.

Well, need to get some sleep...I've got several irons in the fire and I've got to keep track of what I've got to do. Can't do that if I'm half asleep...

Oh, I remember those days of coffee pots instead of food - didn't do me any good. Now I can't even have coffee often as it upsets my tummy. Walking is a ways off for me right now, I've got to strengthen those muscles and stop the pain first. But I know better than to overdo it...slow and steady wins the race.

Take a look at some tai chi workouts for beginners. There's even some that are seated workouts too. Check out Blockbusters, their where I go to get my dvd's since they're more than just movies and games.
I'm going to hate it if they go under, I love the Blockbuster online membership my brother got me for the Holidays. I get to watch all the cool movies I've missed out on. lol

Keep warm and stay safe,

 in response to Mimzy...   You are pretty and I can't go without eating as I did that with Sunny but the weather was warmer and by 2pm I was cold as I hadn't eaten nothing. Love to live on two cups of coffee or have gano caffe.
I hope you feel better with walking and I would love to be in my 20's so I could have that natural energy where I am friends use to walk everywhere and on a diet all the time. Those were fun day.
I hope the doctors can help you and read what sandy24 said about migraines.
Before 2003 I was more active too.
Take care and I hope you feel better. And I lost muscle tone too and aging doesn't help at all. And I miss my Sunny.
Get on the internet for answers and write Dr. Oz
It was good hearing from you.
hugs
Starshine

 in response to Starshine...   Thanks, though I don't think I'm that pretty.
Of late I've had to come to grips with the fact that there's a lot more white and silver than blond in my hair...

That I'm not as healthy as I'd like to be and I worry if I'll be around if something don't change.
I've been to the doctors - they've poked, prodded and taken samples over and over. They've looked inside from about every angle there is to look from...and more than once!

But they don't offer any advice, help or even a diagnosis. It's just this or that is wrong, this or that isn't quite right...but no solutions.
No real diagnosis for what's wrong...except that I'm falling apart.
I've fibrosis that they won't operate on to take out. I've abdominal pains that nearly drop me to my knees at times.

I've had a problem with eating, well...actually, it's not eating. My blood sugar doesn't seem to drop low enough to make me hungry like it should.
I've had days where I've gotten up to run about due to appointments or such and forgot to eat. I buzz about all day, get back home and hop onto the computer to catch up with the work I have since I was out for the morning.
I often have a cup of tea that my daughter brings me or a cup of hot apple cider that I sip as I work. The trouble is that it isn't till the evening that I start to feel a tad hollow and realize I've not eaten a thing.
I will make something small since I don't like to eat heavy before bed and promise myself that I'll have an early breakfast. But I'll make some oatmeal with some bananas and a drizzle of honey. Or I'll have some toast with jam and of course my tea or cider. I may have a cup of milk, if there's at least half a galleon. But if I don't watch the time or get caught up online, working or blogging...I'll forget all about eating again.

This whole thing has my system out of whack. My body thinks there's no food and is on storage mode. Meanwhile, a couple years ago, I used to walk everywhere. The bank, the stores, to pay bills, to go to nearby appointments - I don't drive, I had little patience for the bus which is on an hourly schedule - so I walked.

But soon, I noticed that it was difficult to stand the next day. Often the pain was so bad I'd fall back down on the bed. It would take a while to finally get my legs to hold me, a bit more to be able to finally walk fully upright again. The pain was in my pads, then the heel...where the pain shot up the Achilles tendon and up the back of my leg to the knee. My shin splints ached, sore after walking.

Most of the places I had to go to were on a road 2 miles away. So the trip there and back was 4 miles. Then the length of road where the bank, stores, utilities and such was about 2-3 miles long. Of course, walking inside the stores, bank and such added more steps. So I'd estimate at least 5 miles min. per outing. (even if I caught the bus back, I still had about 4-5 blocks to walk to get home.)
So I tried to do more while I was out, so I only had to go out 1-2 times a week. But even though I continued to do it, I knew something was wrong inside.

Two years ago, the doctor told me I had to stop walking so much. I was in pain often, plus I'd started to have my right leg start to go numb if I stood too long. My knee had started to buckle on me and I'd had some close calls to keep from falling. So my son started to go to do the errands. I stayed home more and more often.

But it's not made things better, I still have the numbness when I stand too long. The doctor says I've arthritis in my hips & knee now to go along with my hands. Both shoulders have rotator cuff damage & I can't hold them up for very long. It also limits how much I can lift. They
I've lost the muscle tone I had, I've lost my endurance, strength and mobility. I can barely go up and down the stairs without feeling winded. It aggravates my asthma and I have to use my inhaler more often. So I try not to take the stairs, as I'm also worried about falling.

I don't like being like this...I want to find a way to improve my health and get better. Inside I know that I need to fix things, but who do I go to if the doctors won't help me...
I can't afford some fancy treatment, I'm yanked on from all directions so much of the time that I feel like a piece of taffy...all this stress isn't good for me either.

I wish that I could find some way to move forward with this. But it's the one area that I can't seem to get anywhere on...

Well, best let you go, I think one novel a week is plenty...lol
Take care and stay warm..

 in response to Mimzy...   Hello
I can see how you look like Stevie Nicks. Maybe you have allergies like hayfever as we have them here. My eyes have been itching a little so I just figure a little allergies.
I hope things improve for you.
take care and sorry I didn't get back to you but had to semi close this computer down for a bit.
Starshine

 in response to Starshine...   Thanks, yeah that's a picture of me - good ol' black and white helps to make me look better I think.
My brother has one of the 5 shots I had done and he says I look like Stevie Nicks in the shot. I think he's nuts! lol
May have been better if I'd worn a black shirt to match my hat though, since it was a portrait shot. Black pants don't make it work since the white shirt's sorta whiting out me too.
If I'd been behind the camera I would have noticed it right away. So much for a cheap photo shoot...lol live and learn.

With all the cool stuff that they do with Photoshop, you'd think that I could get it fixed so that I'm wearing a darker shirt, something to match the beret I'm wearing. Unfortunately, I don't do the online art styles. I'm strictly an old fashioned kind of artist. Sure, I can toss some graphics together and make a fair deal of it for web design, but for real art work - I need the traditional tools.

I've not been feeling too well the last few days, started on my birthday and have been feeling a bit under the weather. It may be depression, but feels more like a bug is trying to pull me down. My eyes are sore, itchy...nose is sniffy and I'm sneezing a bit more. I'm droopy, not much energy, no appetite, but that's nothing new. I just want to lay down and sleep...that's not like me.

I've got to try and stay awake, keep focused since I've got a site to finish if I'm going to get paid. Plus I'm still trying to find a way to make some extra cash online so that I can supplement my disability income. I'm having too much trouble concentrating today though, so I may just take the day off.
Hope it's nothing that's going to keep me down as I don't have the funds for medicine.

Well, best get off here and try to take a nap. Maybe I'll feel better when I wake up..Take care of yourself...

Hello and belated Happy Birthday to you. You hair color reminds me of a friend who went white with a dark spot underneath early on in her years and she was always stunning. Birthdays bring a time for relflection on getting older and what we still want to accomplish at least for me. That is a pretty picture of you I assume? Well I hope this year holds a lot more better times in store for you and others.
Wishing for you a brighter future,
Starshine